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Everyone know what is love,right ? Everyone did love someone no matter either they love you back or not. Or you love that person or not. But it is still about love. Sometimes, people say "i don't believe in love, i just wait until the love comes when the time is coming" But, if you don't search for it. It will never comes. Try to imagine it, how come someone go for you and propose you without knowing you, all about you. I means, wowww, it's miracle. Pfftt ~
But, it's not about what i want to talk about. What i wanna tell y'all is i love this guy. At first i saw him like "euww,i will never married someone like him, never and never fall into someone like him" but at last, pffft ~ i love him. And when i love him, i felt like am the one who top of the world. It would be a miracle happens in my life if i married him. Oh M Gy ~ But, our religion, age is different. Totally different. I did promised to myself to change him, haha but i don't know...maybe things got different now. Yeahh, we are both in love for 4months it is because we live, study, eat in the same place. We meet each other often.
However, i thought that he was playing around with me,. Well, i know some guys who is not serious in love. But, at last. When i ignored him in the holiday of my 2nd SEMESTER, block him and everything bout him. He never send me a message. Well, im not block his number, just his acc in social med...but, he is ego, never try to reach me out. 2 weeks later, he going to the place that nearby to my house. Ask me to go out. I go with my cousin, and then la la la ~ *its my story* haha
Then i entered his car, take me to somewhere that nearby my house, then i felt that i should not go with him, i hate him. I forced myself to hate him then i asked him to stop the car. But he told that he want to show something and say something serious to me. But, i don't want to. I know that it's my fault.
When we arrived, i left my things and walk away from him and called my friends to fetch me and took me home. I will not walk alone, it will takes about 30minutes... Haha :'( Then, i saw him with the car. I turn off my phone and after 2 hours switch it on back then there's a lot of wechat and missed calls from him. About a few seconds, he called me. He is such a stubborn, never stop doing something until he got it. :') Then i pick up the fone, he cried and yeahhh my story :P
But in the same times, i cried too. Hehe, he said that if i am really hate him then he will try to stay away from me. I really don't wanna him to do that because i love him too. He taught me to become this way, when we're together, he kind likes to insist me to do something that i won't, he curse me, lied to me even i know it, he keep force me to fulfill his wishes even thought i don't want to.
But, when i started to forget him, he appears ! :'( And on 17/12/2015 he will go back to his country to celebrate christmas with his family but when he came to Malaysia, he won't be in Kelantan anymore, instead he will work and fly in Ipoh.
I promised myself to find him when i grow up. I swear. That's why i don't want him to stay away from me. I want him back when i'm adult. Ohh btw, he is born in 1990 and me? 1999 ^_^ 9 years older than me. But, it's not the reason why we should broke up. Religion? Bae, i hope that u will turn into a good person, if you want me, really want me please be with me. No matter what happens just be by my side. Ohh ya, i still hearing his voice that i make 'favorite' in wechat. :") i won't lose you Niel. I will keep remember you. I will keep you in my mind like what you said to me for the last time on the date that i said above, you said you'll keep me in your heart.
Lastly, if i found you one day, and if you're married :'( we will still become a friends. I need you to be by my side no matter what happens. Friend? Boyfriend? Husband? No matter what happen, i need you in my life even though you had to be my friends 'only' :') I love you, Nathaniel !
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