Ok hai and Assalamualaikum.... :)

Nak share sikit, ni first experience hanyy pakai spek. OMG! How do i look? I don't know. I can't stop laughing looking at myself wearing the spectacles. What will my friends say about my new face? Ugly ? :( Beautiful <3 Haha.

Tak tau lah, tak ready lagi nak pergi sekolah. Pastu time pilih bikar spek tu pulak tak tau lah amik masa brapa lama, hanyy  kalau bab pilih barang, tak kira lah baju ke sluar ke blouse ke dresses ke shawl ke makanan ke alaaa semua benda la. Hanyy kena round 4/5 kali baru puas ati. Tapi depends on mood ngan time la, kalau rushing sangat bedal je, ada masa beli yang lain pulak tak pun tunggu yang tu rosak dlu. Sebab hanyy bagi la baju apa pun, apa semua laaa. Hanyy pandai matching kan, memang my weakness pilih barang ni tapi bagi la apa pun dapat matching. haha ;)

So, i am so nervous. Hanyy rabun silau je pun, 25 kanan 50 kiri. Nasib baik la tak rabunnnnnnnn betul2. Tidak nayaa la karang. Patut la time study ke cikgu bagi formula addmath/math/science kat depan macam kena pejam2, kadang2 pening. Dahla kena focus betul2, tidak tak lulus exam sem ni kena repeat la sem seterusnya, tknak :(

Ada masa hanyy share gambar hanyy pakai spek tu ek, ahahaha tak beli pun lagi, my mom janji next week pergi beli, sebab tadi check je mata. Tadi pun tengah rushing kan sebab nak pergi appointment ngan doktor gigi sebab hanyy nak PAKAI BRACES !!! #braces,, OMG, braces + spectacles ! HOW DO I LOOK !!! I am a dead meat. HHAHA :v k laa got to go :v Bye Assalamualaikum, tido dulu selamat pagi Isnin pukul 4:30a,m haha <3

I promise anytime you call me it don't matter where i am i will always be there, like you've been there, if you need me closer, i'll be right over, I swear !

Yeaa, kind like you've heard that before. Of course because it's one of the lyric of Harris J. I like him so much, hehe ;) btw, today i wanna talk about love, :O OMG, no.! I've been talked about love too often. I get tired of it. I don't need it anymore as long as i got the title "student", i will never been in love. No more. It sick! Gross :(

Today, i want to talk about PROMISE. You must be have a lot of promises that you received, you made and maybe you have done half of your promises, but there is also fake promise that you've made or received but not all of it.

You know what? You better not making a promise if you're not sure you will make it or not. It's kind like you gives hope to someone and if you're not fulfill it, you've broke one heart. Be careful. But we, as a receiver we should not trust anyone. No matter in what condition, what situation. You just listen to it but do not believe it. Or you will break your heart. I know everyone did promises to someone but you must fulfill your promises. Ok, for example, you promised me to pay what you owe me, like money. You said you want to pay it on Saturday, but you're not make it. How i feel? Then, i told myself to not borrow you anything anymore. NO MORE!

So, do what your tongue say. ;) Ohh sorry guys, i need to go. I will continue this paragraph as soon as im back. Haha Byee ~

Everyone know what is love,right ? Everyone did love someone no matter either they love you back or not. Or you love that person or not. But it is still about love. Sometimes, people  say "i don't believe in love, i just wait until the love comes when the time is coming" But, if you don't search for it. It will never comes. Try to imagine it, how come someone go for you and propose you without knowing you, all about you. I means, wowww, it's miracle. Pfftt ~

But, it's not about what i want to talk about. What i wanna tell y'all is i love this guy. At first i saw him like "euww,i will never married someone like him, never and never fall into someone like him" but at last, pffft ~ i love him. And when i love him, i felt like am the one who top of the world. It would be a miracle happens in my life if i married him. Oh M Gy ~ But, our religion, age is different. Totally different. I did promised to myself to change him, haha but i don't know...maybe things got different now. Yeahh, we are both in love for 4months it is because we live, study, eat in the same place. We meet each other often.

However, i thought that he was playing around with me,. Well, i know some guys who is not serious in love. But, at last. When i ignored him in the holiday of my 2nd SEMESTER, block him and everything bout him. He never send me a message. Well, im not block his number, just his acc in social med...but, he is ego, never try to reach me out. 2 weeks later, he going to the place that nearby to my house. Ask me to go out. I go with my cousin, and then la la la ~ *its my story* haha

Then i entered his car, take me to somewhere that nearby my house, then i felt that i should not go with him, i hate him. I forced myself to hate him then i asked him to stop the car. But he told that he want to show something and say something serious to me. But, i don't want to. I know that it's my fault.

When we arrived, i left my things and walk away from him and called my friends to fetch me and took me home. I will not walk alone, it will takes about 30minutes... Haha :'( Then, i saw him with the car. I turn off my phone and after 2 hours switch it on back then there's a lot of wechat and missed calls from him. About a few seconds, he called me. He is such a stubborn, never stop doing something until he got it. :') Then i pick up the fone, he cried and yeahhh my story :P

But in the same times, i cried too. Hehe, he said that if i am really hate him then he will try to stay away from me. I really don't wanna him to do that because i love him too. He taught me to become this way, when we're together, he kind likes to insist me to do something that i won't, he curse me, lied to me even i know it, he keep force me to fulfill his wishes even thought i don't want to.

But, when i started to forget him, he appears ! :'( And on 17/12/2015 he will go back to his country to celebrate christmas with his family but when he came to Malaysia, he won't be in Kelantan anymore, instead he will work and fly in Ipoh.

I promised myself to find him when i grow up. I swear. That's why i don't want him to stay away from me. I want him back when i'm adult. Ohh btw, he is born in 1990 and me? 1999 ^_^ 9 years older than me. But, it's not the reason why we should broke up. Religion? Bae, i hope that u will turn into a good person, if you want me, really want me please be with me. No matter what happens just be by my side. Ohh ya, i still hearing his voice that i make 'favorite' in wechat. :") i won't lose you Niel. I will keep remember you. I will keep you in my mind like what you said to me for the last time on the date that i said above, you said you'll keep me in your heart.

Lastly, if i found you one day, and if you're married :'( we will still become a friends. I need you to be by my side no matter what happens. Friend? Boyfriend? Husband? No matter what happen, i need you in my life even though you had to be my friends 'only' :') I love you, Nathaniel !

Hye guys or gals ~ Good Evening and Assalamualaikum w.b.t ~ Hari ni, adalah hari hujan. Yeaaa bagi yang duduk kelantan a.k.a Panji atau lebih dekat lagi dengan panggil Crew Residence tempat tinggal pilot depan Jubli bawah Demit di Panji ! Haha, panjang ke tidok ? So, sini bukan tempat melawak ke hapaa, just nak share story. Suka ? Alhamdulillah, tak suka ? Ehh kesah pulak, lainlah kalau awak tu bagitahu saya kan yang awak ni suka ke tidak dengan blog yang saya tulis ni. Hahaha ~ Sejujurnya, menipu itu lebih bagus jika tidak ingin sakit hati dan sebaliknya kejujuran itu adalah lebih menyakitkan daripada yang kita sangka. Tengok tajuk atas.

Haaa, so today korang rasa apa yang Honey akan bagitahu korang. Apa yang Honey akan share atau bercerita dengan korang.? Cinta ? Ahh jemu lah asyik cinta je. Macam takderkkk keje lain je. Haha, tapi hampir 99% hidup kita ni dengan Cinta, right ? For tipu, 99% untuk cinta manusia dan 1% untuk cinta kepada Allah tapi yang sebenarnya ataupun yang patut kita buat adalah 99% kepada Allah dan 1% untuk manusia ! Haaa tudia, korang buat tak ? Tak kan, alaaa cayalahh. Hehe, Allah berikan kita cinta, maka gunalah dengan sebaiknya. Malas nak cakap banyak, korang boleh baca entry kat bawah ni. "Gals"

So, sorry mengelamun banyak, dah hilang dah apa yang Honey nak cakap tadi, hahha takpe, nanti Honey pikir balik. Emm, buat buat cakap sambil taip macam ni nanti muncul la tu idea, ohh ya jap nak banyak paragraph atas. Hahaha, benda ni kita elaborate, so baca je lah paragraph atas untuk dapat idea. :3

Ohh ya, i got it :v Ni nak tanya korang *cover line la, idea tak dapat* korang lebih suka yang mana ? Tipu Atau Jujur ? Macam ni lah, korang nak bahagia ke nak sengsara ? Fuyooo soalan. Macam mintak kapak :v Hakhakhak -_-"

Seandainya lah korang ni pilih Jujur kan, yes ! Of course semua orang nak jujur *macam aku dengar je jawapan korang, huhahuha* tapi sakit lah rasanya. Sebab jujur tu memang paling mulia and memang menyakitkan. Tapi sampai bila nak hidup macam tu, sometimes we don't need to be serious person 24/7. We need to have fun! We need to cheer up ourselves too. Jokes, party, and so on. Kebanyakkan orang macam ni adalah orang pejabat, kerjanya besar, jarang bergurau, sakit pun simpan sorang2, suka spend time sorang2, tapi susah nak cari orang yang dia betul betul suka. Sebab orang macam ni memang pikir masa depan, nak masa depan cerah lah, itu ini. And bila dia dah jumpa orang yang dia nak tu, perghhh, tak lepaslah, Orang kata "Bila Hati Dah Sayang" =)

Kalau korang pilih Tipu but nak Bahagia. Hmm, korang nak ke hidup dengan penipuan semata-mata dan bukanlah rekaan dan tiada kaitan dengan hidup ataupun yang dah mati. Hahaha ~ Ehh lawak ek ? OK tak, tahu lah kita tak buat lawak, tahu ada yang suka and tahu ada yang meluak. Ehh kesah pulak. :v

So, korang rasa korang boleh tahan ke hidup dengan penipu ni? Tak lama makan sepak jugak an ? Hahaha, takdelah. Memang lah menipu ni tak baik, but sometime, we need to lying just to have some jokes, kidding. Kadang kadang menipu ada baiknya jugak ! Kadang-kadang kalau dah tipu sekali ni, nak tipu je selalu, nak tipu je memanjangg ~ Nak tipu je keje dia. Tau tak tipu tu dosa. Haha, Honey pun tipu gakk la. Tapi, tipu sunat. And tipu tu kadang-kadang dapat menyelamatkan diri kita. Kadang-kadang jugak kalau dah ajar diri kita menipu je terus, boleh makan diri. Betul ke idak ?

So, kedua-duanya sebenarnya tak elok. Tapi, tu lahh. Pandai pikir lah. Haha, sambung nanti lah. Nak buat entry baru ke, nak sambung yang ni ke. Sebab my mom datang bawak pizza, kfc td ngan kek coklat berserta candies untuk makanan asrama I today. Nasi kat cafe semakin tak best -_-" Haha, ok lah. Bye, <3

Kecurigaan terhadap lelaki punya pasal, yakin ke takkan jatuh cinta ? For me, it's just permulaan antara kisah cinta yang baru sahaja bermula. Mungkin ada yang mula mula manis kemudian pahit, tawar, masin, masam and nak disingkatkan lagi, pelbagai perisa lah ada, betul bukan? Bukan nak kata cinta ni tak adil ke apa, tapi memang hakikatnya macam tu lah. Tapi, bukan semuanya perlu manis, percintaan takkan lengkap tanpa pergaduhan. Pergaduhan itulah yang sebenarnya yang melengkapi hidup anda. :)

Tahniah hanyy ucapkan kepada yang berjaya setia, jujur dan ikhlas sayangkan pasangan masing2. Bukan apa, susah nak cari yang jenis macam tu. Bagi perempuan, lelaki semua sama sahaja, takde bezanya kan? Sebab apa perempuan berkata sedemikian adalah kerana mereka sering dipermainkan oleh lelaki, ditipu oleh lelaki, digunakan oleh lelaki. Tapi kita takboleh salahkan lelaki sahaja yee semua :) Perempuan adakalanya yang jenis begitu, tetapi susah nak cari perempuan kasar ni. Lelaki yang jujur dan tulus serta ikhlas menyayangi perempuan pun susah jugak kita nak cari. Entahlah, kalau hanyy nak describe satu persatu ni susah sebenarnya, semua ada kisah tersendiri. Samada pahit, manis, tawar, masin mahupun masam itu semua adalah kisah mereka, Kisah silam ataupun sejarah hitam mereka biarlah terkubur di dalam diri masing-masing. Yang dah lepas usah dikenang. Apa yang penting adalah untuk hari yang seterusnya.

So, for yang putus cinta tu, ni lah tipsnya. Tapi nak bagi tips ni lah kan, for me. Ada level dia, i means bagi umur. Ye lah, ada yang cakap Cinta Tak Mengenal Usia. So, daripada mereka terus hanyut dalam dilemma or trademark yang macam tu, apa kita honey pulak yang meracuni pemikiran mereka daripada terus hanyut macam tu je, bahaya okey! Jangan dipandang remeh! Think about it, parents, teenagers, and adults. Do not blame on love, do not blame your Creature, and do not blame yourself. You should not blame anyone else because it's nobody's mistake. It's just world! I means, our world is getting older, our technology is over-modern now. So, why not kita pulak memainkan peranan moden memandangkan dunia semakin berubah. Manusia semakin gila and so many tactics or option they use to trap gals ~ Tak salah kan?

We just want to protect'em from getting worse. Because they are now addicted too much in movies or dramas. Hey hey guys ! Know what ? Drama or movie tu semuanya memang betul apa yang terjadi, tapi dia describe tak apa yang isi hati mereka cakap time diorang acting tu? No right ? So, we must think smart ! Education high sekalipun, but you never realized that you are having nothing ! U.S.E.L.E.S.S. ! I'm not trying to tell you that what are you doing now is wrong. It's just all about love ! Don't you ever think about it ?! Come one gals. It's not wrong  to fall in love. Trust him, yes. You need to think about it ! You need to put all that kind of things in your relationship, but you don't have to be an idiot, to be stupid more than you think that you will never be ! It's only one thing. L.U.S.T. ! Right ?

Everybody does have it laa, but please control it. We are not western people, they're all non-muslim. Remember, we have heaven, we have the Kitab Suci Al-Qur'an to guide us, believe in what you're believe now ! Remember ! Mana asal usul kita, dari mana kita berasal. Dari tu jjugak lah kita dikembalikan !

So now, tolong gals, mainkan peranan penting. It's only one thing that you must remember when you're wanna do something, your mom. I know that Islam just in Identity Card, cakap Islam but acting like EntahPaPe (EPP) So, you will forget Allah if lust control yourself, so, to ease it, remember your mom. Don't you feel sorry for your mom if someday something happens. You know what i'm actually talking about, right ? ;) Maybe orang cakap "fuhh jauh kau pikir". Sekarang macam-macam boleh jadi, tapi tu hanyalah antara kita dengan Allah ^_^ AllahuAkbar ~

So, thinks. Ada soalan or anything nak tanya, can add me on Wechat - hanyy99 or my whatsapp - 0199771954 Assalamualaikum w.b.t ~ Semoga apa yang hanyy cakapkan ni jadi manfaat untuk semua !

 "Kawan tu kadang kadang macam Hantu dan Hantu tu pulak kadang kadang macam Kawan"

Pernah dengar 'falsampah' dekat atas? Tak, bukan? Memanglah, sebab tu hanyy create sendiri. Well u know, i would love to think something that people won't think and make it as hobby. It's okay as long as it doesn't disturb people so, go ahead =D

Start hanyy sekolah dekat KOLEJ VOKASIONAL (SWASTA) ASIA PACIFIC FLIGHT TRAINING ni, banyak kawan yang hanyy kenal, semuanya orang jauh. Ada dari Selangor, ada dari Sarawak, Perak, Johor, Kelantan, etc. Bermacam-macam ragam, pelbagai rupa, pelbagai perangai dan kerenah, pelbagai sifat dan pelbagai warna kulit. Kadang-kadang tu rindu jugak dekat sekolah lama, sana hanyy ada life, hidup dah macam star. Everybody loves me, treat me right, tak kisah diorang form berapa. Always call my name politely, never raised their voices to me and always together. But, in here =') sometimes, our friends can turn into our enemies...

YES! Kita tak kenal sangat perangai diorang, but sometimes i tried to lift my white flag, but they are never appreciate me at all. So disappointed of them. It makes me sick when i trying to be fine with them, but they are still with their's own way. Haritu ada jugak palau dia, just nak tahu if she needs me or not. Hurm, terbukti dia still cari aku because she does not have other friends besides me who could entertain her attitude that sometimes never thought about my feelings ! I tried my best to be patient with her, always be her best listener, always try my best to be her good friends, to get closer to her. But sometimes, cara dia layan hanyy tu macam seolah-olah tak pernah pikir tentang perasaan hanyy. Ingat dia je ada perangai macam tu, hanyy pun ada jugaklah, tapi taknak lah tunjuk. Coz hanyy nak jaga attitude hanyy dekat sini, nak jaga etika hanyy sebagai budak asrama, sebagai student, sebagai seorang kawan dekat sini.

Tapi tu lah, kesabaran kita pun ada limit jugak. Just taknak lah sampai satu tahap bila kita dah tak tahan, kita keluarkan semua yang kita pendam selama ni. So i choose to be silent than speak and fyi, silent doesn't mean that we are weak. it is because we does not want to make the problems become more bigger! Hanyy pun taknak ulang kesilapan lama hanyy masa hanyy form3 dulu, sehari sebelum pt3, kitorang sepatutnya buat majlis restu ilmu, mintak restu daripada guru guru sebab sudah mengajar kami dengan penuh sabar. Mintak diorang halalkan ilmu diorang kepada kami sebab esok kami dah nak hadapi peperiksaan yang mungkin besar dan mungkin menjamin masa depan kami. Sebab kalau pt3 kami bagus, maybe kami akan dapat kelas yang terbaik macam kelas sains. Kelas budak budak pandai lah konon (memang pandai pun).

So, cerita dia sebelum pt3 tu hanyy dengan kawan hanyy iaitu wany, macam ada masalah. Dia sama ah perangai macam kat atas tu, yang hanyy dah describe. Hanyy je jaga hati ngan perasaan dia, tapi dia, sanggup berpaling daripada hanyy and tikam belakang hanyy, sanggup umpat hanyy even orang yang dia umpat bersama tu adalah kawan hanyy jugak. See ? Tapi, even dia buat macam tu, i keep loving her. It is because i felt sorry for her. I know all her problem because she would love to share her stories with me than other. Know what ? Cuz i'm her best listener in her life.

Tapi tu lah, hanyy buat baik, bagi pinjam duit, pinjam itu ini, tolong dia, hantar dia ikut dia nak je, belanja makan, lindungi dia, protect dia, and jadi 'bahu' untuk dia sandarkan bila dia sedih senang citer, im her everything. I swear that she will never forget bout me ! Hanyy terus jadi baik, buat baik kat dia sampai satu tahap tu bila dia dah BERANI tunjuk perangai sebenar dia depan hanyy, hanyy dah tak tahan sangat, hanyy tumbuk muka dia, pijak belakang dia, serious talk, hanyy buat macam tu depan orang yang dia anggap "baik dari hanyy" depan orang yang dia "umpatkan tentang hanyy" sebab hanyy nak bagi dia pikir, kalau dia kena sampai berdarah, ada ke orang nak tolong dia?!! Takde ! NOBODY HELP HER WHEN I PUNCHED HER FACE!!!

So sorry because aku bertindak macam tu, aku just nak kau pikir. Kawan yang kau anggap 'kawan' tu tolong ke kau? Tak, bukan? So kau ni, sorry to say, but kau terlalu bodoh dalam memilih kawan, kau tak nampak orang yang ada depan mata kau ni lah yang sanggup ada masa susah dan senang kau. Kau takpayah lah bersusah payah nak cari kawan, kawan bukannya kena cari, kawan yang sebenar adalah kawan yang cari kita dan bukannya kita yang kena cari dia! Remember that!

Tu adalah peristiwa, sejarah, pengalaman mahupun kisah hidup aku waktu aku sekolah menengah, sehari sebelum examination. Memang teruk, maybe sedih, maybe jahat, maybe kasar, tapi tu lah hakikatnya. Pandai pandai lah cari kawan, hargai kawan yang sepatutnya kau hargai, kawan dengan orang yang betul betul sanggup berada di waktu kau perlu mahupun tidak. Sebab dia adalah kawan sejati kau. 

So, here aku just nak luahkan salam rindu aku dekat geng aku yang famous 'dulu' dekat Facebook, Youtube, di kalangan Photographer and website, and our gang is TheWannaBabes. Sebab kawan yang aku kawan sekarang ni dekat KV(S) ASIA PACIFIC FLIGHT TRAINING ni perangai macam kau lah, tunggu masa je kut nak kena macam tu lagi. Akan aku cuba bersabar, and aku harap Allah bukakan pintu hati dia supaya dia dapat melihat sape kawan dan sape lawan. Nama dia ? hurm, sorry takleh bagi tahu tapi ada clue -> A.M.A.J ( not included binti) haha. Thanks for reading. Enjoy the next article!

This is where my future begins. Actually, i do not even know where am i, what i do in here, and what so ever. I just carry on everything. I was so frustrated of my examination's result when i was fifteen, when i was form three, and it's hard for me to believe that i'm here now. Coz i know that i do not belong here, i'm not deserves here. But the only thing that i should know is, this is what we called "fate" ! We can't against the fate, guyssssss. =)

But sometimes, i did miss my old life, and i know that we're not supposed to be young forever, we're only getting older. What i do in my every single days is thinking about my future, throwback again my memories, what i did in my past. Remembered my mistakes. Well, you know....i think everyone will do that, will do what i'm doing when they're alone.

And now, what i'm going to share in here is....about... my life when i was in APFT, my new college. I make new friends with strangers. Got the chance to know each other, somebody that i used to know and bring my tears here...it is just because i miss my mom ='( Oh ya, sometimes when i wake up in the midnight, i will cry again and over again just because i missed my mom so much. I don't know why but i keep doing that. Weirdo right? Ha Ha. -_-"

 Okay, now this is my classmates. And i love all of'em ... Always make us laughing until our tears drop on paper. But sometimes their's jokes was so annoying. The girl who is in brown is our Princess. Our Mom. Our Sister. Our Everything. She's our teacher who always bring happiness for us but..when she is sulking or not in mood, suddenly one of us make jokes. She will just leaving our classroom and will not teaching us as usual. Awww, she's so cute and adorable =3 We Loves Her !